Living In Today

I woke up in the morning and I got this feeling that I was late. I was an hour into my usual wake up time and I was not late for anything but myself. I got to work early and then I begun to realize me. I had left today and was living in a time far from today. But aren’t many of us like me? We many times catch ourselves leaving in a far off tomorrow. We begin to feel like we are not satisfied with where we are seated at the moment and time passes by with many of us doing nothing for ourselves.

A sence of worthlessness begins to sweep over everything we see and touch and we begin to ask ourselves what it really is that we are here to do. I was late today and yet I can tell you many more times when I was late, or I thought I was. Life to me is a series of many things , some good some bad. And because of that very fact, we can never tell what truly was a mistake and what was not until we have left this life for another.

We think of ourselves as beings whose future stretches through time. Yet we always look at that time as brief and so everything we need to do should be done quickly. But again, here I ask another question, how fast is fast enough?

We have seen men that had it all and then lost all of it or lost the most important elements of life, we have also seen men who seemed to never have had anything at all ,all their lives and yet we don’t know how much value they added to life in total.
Some how we all have an addition we make to life, even the wicked man for the day of judgment. Think of the bible talking about God punishing the sinner and yet all we see are the righteous. Think about many things , like political campaigns taking place whaen there is no corruption or economic instability.

We are a part of these things, when the thread of life is finally stretched out, we shall see just how much everything we did or experienced led to time coming to its end.

I remember my morning and I realize that while we strive to live where we are , we should strive to live in a better future. And I should add that we don’t have to worry about that because that time will bring us to fight for what it of greatest value and we shall make tomorrow better. We are never late and yet we are never too early. I believe we are always on time. The feelings we experience and the testimonies of others are all part of the devices designed to move us to where we are supposed to be. Many times I beleive that even our responces to those things could not have been different and yet they satisfy that same purpose.

So why the depression?
For some of us, it is given to have that desire to be better, for some that is simply absent until it will be stirred up to come to life. some men have not strived to be where they are and yet some others have. would things have been different? I don’t think so, I think other wise.

I have written this with no editing or premeditation, just an impulse being responded too. For this reason I know how easy it is to find me incorrect on many grounds and yet in know the opposite too can happen, and that would be right.