The River Between

I have reached a rather delicate point in my climb, delicate because I see myself more in the singular form than ever before. In my eyes, I see me standing alone, walking alone, and fighting alone. Sometimes I find myself gasping for company and almost instantly I realize that that is not what I need, I realize that I need to be still and watch, and simply watch like a perfected hunter watching his prey and anticipating it’s every move.

The Masses:

We find ourselves, on many occasions, being part of the masses, that group that makes the majority, the ones that are planned for and the ones that are each fighting for a larger share. There are days in our lives when it’s very hard to have an independent identity, when the general fits us perfectly well and we lack only that which the masses lack.
In those moments we are not anything more than takers or potential takers. We stand in the crowd and we identify ourselves by the needs and anticipations of the crowd. Even though the individuals in the mass may have differing anticipations and needs, we seem to single out only those that are common to all as our own as well. I find that in these moments we ignore ourselves in the name of the greater good. The challenge is that while we assume to suffer similar wrongs and hold similar anxieties, we are without a common goal, without a common direction of movement and that to me is a false oneness.snf even though the leaders of the group may seem to summon us to respond to a single goal, we can only respond to it and look at it through our individual goals. To ignore those goals is to ignore the masses.

The Group:

There are days when we identify ourselves by a group. At this point we find a few people that identify with us. They are the ones with whom we can work and grow, they are as different from the rest as we are and that’s what makes us alike. It seems that our common background is basis for a common future and that while we stand individually, we all stand at an advantageous point above the rest.
The challenge with this is that we ignore ourselves by ignoring the rest. While we find ourselves with a clear line of action and direction, and we may achieve some success in that line, we forget that unless the rest make some move in the forward as we do, our success will be short lived or will not happen.
The point is that pain is ours when it visits one of us, and that success to is ours when it visits one. When that one chooses to hold on to it individually, they set all of us at a delicate point because the weight we impose to that success finally pulls his success down. The reverse is very true.

The individual;

Here we only see ourselves we are the point of focus, we are different from all those around us. Our goals are more important than those of the rest. We may make a significant amount of progress and we may be viewed as really successful but that success is not complete. On that road we have offended so many people; we have lost friends and missed the opportunities to truly grow. When we isolate ourselves from those to whom we belong in a way that makes us strangers to our own, and therefore to us, we set ourselves on a lonely road that yields little and in actual sense costs a lot.

The River Between:

At this point we see ourselves from all the points with almost the same intensity of focus in all three. I have looked in the hearts of children that thought they were alone and felt the pain and the loneliness they experienced. But I also realized how narrow their vision had become after that time of compression. There river between is the only point that they stoop so far from, to bring them to that point would require that we all get in on the job, the smaller group, the masses and the children themselves.
The point is that there is no saying that as long as our family, church, religious sect, nation, or even self is doing great we are all better off and we are not to look elsewhere. At the same point we realize that our job in the lives of the others is to create abilities as opposed to imposing our good on them.
I find that even when we stand in the midst of the greatest masses, we can and should be able to see our spot in time and space and take it. At the same time we should be able to realize the implications of that seeing on the other subdivisions. The older I get the more I realize that the lives we live are not indeed ours, and that how we use them, impacts greatly on those around us, both near and far off. I realize that living is like having God extend Himself through and into us and that what we do or how we use that extension matters greatly to Him.

I hope I got the point across, we all matter and all matter.